alixxx

went to vivid on tuesday night.

so fucking good.

I think the reason why twentysomethings are so fixated on age is because we feel a pressure to be a certain way at 23, at 25, at 29. There are all of these invisible deadlines with our careers and with love and drinking and drugs. I can’t do coke at 25. I need to be in a LTR at 27. I can’t vomit from drinking at 26. I just can’t! We feel so much guilt for essentially acting our age and making mistakes. We’re obsessed with this idea of being domesticated and having our shit together. It’s kind of sad actually because I don’t think we ever fully get a chance to enjoy our youth. We’re so concerned about doing things “the right way” that we lose any sense of pleasure in doing things the wrong way. Youth may be truly wasted on the young.

growing up in the country.

sometimes i hate the fact i grew up there.

then again, when i meet people who’ve never left sydney in their entire lives,

i am so grateful.

i lived in a place that made me want to explore the entire world,

just to see what else is out there.

smoking is very glamorous.

so good.

moved in with danrool this week,

and we have the biggest park next door.

so many skate dates.

Ready to run away, again.

this is how i feel right now.

probably gonna go to the park and scream if one more person pisses me off.